The Convert by G.K. Chesterton

I read a poem tonight that I want to share with you. It is called The Convert, by Chesterton.

I think this can also be applied to my many "revert" friends as well! What a beautiful piece of literature..

After one moment when I bowed my head
And the whole world turned over and came upright,
And I came out where the old road shone white.
I walked the ways and heard what all men said,
Forests of tongues, like autumn leaves unshed,
Being not unlovable but strange and light;
Old riddles and new creeds, not in despite
But softly, as men smile about the dead


The sages have a hundred maps to give
That trace their crawling cosmos like a tree,
They rattle reason out through many a sieve
That stores the sand and lets the gold go free:
And all these things are less than dust to me
Because my name is Lazarus and I live.

The "Struggle"

It's in my emptiness, when I am unworthy and have nothing to give to You, that I need You the most.

And I am painfully empty and unworthy to be called a daughter of the King and in need of grace.

I Can Say, "It Is Well."

Lately, I've been feeling an inner sense of calm, without many worries to disturb my peace. But of course, as a new convert, I'm "on watch," monitoring my feelings carefully, but I am trying to "let go, and let God."

There's a song by Chris Tomlin that I believe can accurately describe my feelings as of now...

There's a peace I've come to know
Though my heart and flesh may fail
There's an anchor for my soul
I can say "It is well"

Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead


And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles' wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise

No frustrations, no anxiousness, just a calm willingness to go with all He has in store, for He has given His all for me, for His plan for my life.

If and when He calls me, I pray that I am even the least bit observant enough to recognize this, and "rise" to Him. I believe this is one of my biggest flaws. I'm terribly oblivious and dumb. I hope to be able to train myself to recognize His signs. But, alas, He knows me better than I know myself, and therefore I trust He will make things known to me whenever He well pleases!

Anyway, I go back up to start my sophomore year of university at the Mount. I can't believe my Freshman year and summer have gone by this fast! I'll be out of college before I know it...I really am praying for a year as wonderful as the last. I am so blessed!